Just thinking back to this time last year... I didn't even know I was pregnant... I was, but I didn't know it. Now Gavin is four months and one week old. 17 weeks to be exact. It is crazy that time goes by so quickly. All the changes and the squirminess.... I have to put a diaper on my head to be able to change him with out him rolling over and peeing all over the sofa... CAPTAIN DIAPER!!!! to the rescue... THANK YOU KARENE! What a life and sofa saver that is :D Gavin has changed my life for the better. He has made me so appreciative of the little things, the sun shining and the rainy lazy days, the birds chirping and the smiles I didn't think I had in such a hard time, the music that I listened to repetitively while I was pregnant that calms him down when I can't. It's amazing that Realize by Colbie Caliat can calm him down when he is so upset. I need to get a repeat of that song and put it by the crib... And even though that was a song of mine to Darrell, it doesn't make me sad this time around.
I never knew that my cheeks could hurt from smiling and laughing... But once he gets going, its hard for me not to... His laugh is contagious... And I just want to share it... The "Tickey Monster" and the To Carrot or Not To Carrot make me giggle just thinking about it... Unconditional Love was not a part of my vocabulary until I saw him... Although I loved, I didn't know what unconditional love was, because trust me, if Darrell cried like he does I would be losing my mind...
Speaking of Darrell, he sent me some Valentines Cards today... Bad idea Daddy... Don't you know Mommy is fragile... I loved them... They made me smile and cry and laugh... I miss you so much, and I wish you were here to spend this awesome time with me... But Gavin still looks at your videos with absolute delight... Smiling and laughing and shoving his hand in his mouth when he gets really excited... I love you...
Well that is all for tonight
Rae
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